well im as sober as ill ever be right now. so it is probably a good time to pretend to be lucid.

funny haha and peculiar. well the holiday season looms on the horizon like a dormant plague, ready to spread. soon the air will be rotten sweet with turkey carcass and cordoned douglas and frasier firs. today has been interesting to say the least. a school bus in alabama rolls off an overpass, kramer gets racist, the japanese fight for their right to kill dolphins and 3 tons of cocaine are seized in a homemade submarine headed for the us. luba?

its getting harder to pretend i dont care. its getting to the point where i feel like liberties are being taken which interfere with my right to life. one thing you can do about it is embed yourself deeper in the thick of it, this way when you look around, this is all you see. and thats it, thats your world. stop complaining.

who will be the first to claim their love of beauty has them in a prison? flickr recently implemented some option to assign gps coordinates to the pictures you take. im intrigued, but i also look forward to a camera that sloshes that shit into the exif data. labeling by hand is, you know, time consuming. thats not to say i didnt make it through 1/16th of my pics.

i know everyone is eager for me to do a hockey update. and speaking of eager how about philadelphia. its what everyone wished but now regrets. well i regret it. i like philly as a team, they are good for the league. the hockey press is making all sorts of excuses, not outfitted for new nhl, no top goaltender. its like why soccer isnt popular in the US but is called the world game. its right there, beating you in the head. but saturday and sunday ill make my body a sacrifice for everything america by offering my eyes to the nfl for roughly 36 hours. the only gay sport left.

but yeah, i happen to have todd bertuzzi on my fantasy hockey team. he plays for florida. i regularly purchase the hockey news to get updates from the league; the league is struggling, attendance is down, nj devils had lowest attendance since `91 last week against OTTAWA. apparently if you go to a bar in florida close to the arena where the panthers play, you can get four tickets, for free. i digress. this guy in my fantasy hockey league keeps making passes at bertuzzi. offering me glen murray from boston and when i declined that keith tkachuk from st louis. listen up buddy, the only guy on your squad worth bertuzzi... i dont know, while trading him would make sense, im not in the league to win. im attracted to the names i have. im not trading bertuzzi.

fuck it. its getting cold and the air grows still. today is the kind of day you look up and perceive the clouds are not moving. and they are more misty than cloudy. and the atmosphere looks charged with all manner of magnetic energy... and spirit goblins. but halloweens over and we still have candy left. so when is this carousel gonna stop cause im dizzy and have a headache.

ah but sometimes that dizziness and light headedness bears a message. ive been trying this out recently. getting up quickly after lying down, fasting for extended periods of time. its like a crystal blue clearing. maenads arms spread offering solace. its like i was saying, it will imprison you. make you seek the inverse, bandy it about in nice clothes, make you desire it. then in the end its all smoke and mirrors. and you were in fact unconscious, unmoving, unmoved.